Dear Femi,
I remember the first time you said you love me, your next words were I want to marry you. We talked about all our hopes and dreams and you told me I was the first girl to truly understand. But in all honesty, leaving you was a blessing in disguise. Funny how stepping away from things help you see it clearly.
It took me a while to get over you, 7 months and 2 weeks exactly. A lot of crying and waking up in cold sweats, getting scared because I thought I’d never be able to love again. Being so scared of love that I thought everyone had an agenda.
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It was so bad I had to move away just so I could breathe. And that was when the cobwebs fell off. It’s amazing how a little distance can help you see things in a new light. The emotional blackmail, the constant guilt tripping, the making me feel like a cold and heartless human being. Having to make myself dumb just so you could feel comfortable.
I would have gladly stayed small just to be with you, what I didn’t see was that I could be so much more than average. I could be great, I could have great love and I could have it all.
But I rose, I grew up, I embraced myself and now I’m strong. I make no apologies because I finally know what true freedom is and what true love means. It’s loving myself enough that I don’t need anyone else to validate me, loving myself enough to be whole even when I’m alone.
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So thank you Femi, because leaving you was a blessing in disguise, a rare and true gift that I will always be grateful for. It forced me to fight everything I was, made me chase my dreams and gave me a new life.
Lamo.
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Source: Lifestyle.NG